bewafaa kaun !!!

Kisi ne mujhse kaha –

Woh kehte hain k shraab peena chod do…maine kaha ek shraab hi to bachi hai jo mujhe kabhi dokha nahi di

Agar aaj maine isse chod diya to main bewafaa ban jaaunga !!!

P.S. – Don’t ask me k who ‘Kisi’ kaun hai... :)

Random thoughts !!!

There was a time…I asked you to walk away,

But u stood by my side!!!

You said, you won’t leave me ever… 

You didn’t trust what I meant, neither did I

One fine day…

I started trusting u, but u were not by my side…

You trusted me and walked away !!!” 

Unsaid and Untitled

Being just a social drinker, a full bottle of rum was heavy on my mind and body equally.  And when I woke up at noon on the Saturday, I had a painful headache. I had absolutely no memory of what all I had done after 10pm of Friday.

It was because of a girl, as is in most of the cases for a boy. And I can’t name her as my EX, even. The relationship was quite complicated.

Back to the that day, I never thought I would wake up with a blackout. I cursed myself for all the love that I nourished for her. I finally got up from my bed and rushed to the washroom, and drenched my face with cold water, assuming it will have a soothing affect. Even that couldn’t make me relax and was of no help . I searched for some disprin in my medicine bag. With a heavy struggle for 5 mins I found 2 tablets and mixed both of them in water and gulped in fraction.

After 5 mins, I was back to normal. A strong coffee is always the best thing to start off a day even if it’s an afternoon that the day starts at. I found my way to the kitchen. Back to the bed and sipping the hot coffee, I tried remembering about the previous night.

Two things I was sure of – one that I had  gulped down a whole bottle of rum and the second that I remembered nothing after that.

My habit generally is to share the deep rotten thoughts with someone after a drink. But last night there was no one with whom I would have shared all those thoughts boggling in my mind.

I could not conclude what all crap I had done the previous night.

The phone, I searched for the phone all around to check if I made any calls. It was there on one corner of the table at the verge of falling down. I picked it up carefully and was surprised to find it switched off. I thought it could be because of low battery but when I switched it on  it had  70% of remaining battery, which was even more surprising for me.

I checked for dialed list in case I made any call to someone. But there was no call in dial or receive list after 7:30pm. The last call was to MOM just to make sure she doesn’t call back in the night. J

I was running out of options to know what had happened in the last 16 hours. Inspired by the Sherlock Holmes, I tried looking for some clue at the crime scene, my room. But ended up with nothing.

Finally I decided to give up as my abdominal muscles were tired up with roughness of alcohol and begged me for some food. I was not in position to cook something by myself so found it better to order from somewhere. It generally takes 20-30 minutes for them to deliver, so I had my bath instead of waiting. After I received my order, finally I had a belly full of brunch.

To pass the time , I thought of watching some movie. My lappy was in the hibernate mode and as I entered my password, a song started playing from between as per playlist played last night.

I noticed there was also one untitled word document . And the first 2 words of that document attracted my attention and I had no choice but to read on.

Hey Ravi, How are you dude? It seems like something is going on in your mind. C’mon share with me, whatever it is…you will feel good and light. I don’t know…I don’t know anything…I don’t know what is going on with me…please tell why this is happening with me. Hmmmmm…good…good that you asked the question. Now listen very carefully..okay? What the fuck are you doing man? You are behaving like this is the end of your life. And that too for what , a girl. That bitch who took just a single day to forget you and to get on with someone else. Fuck you…fuck you man. First of all stop listening to all those senti type songs, just delete them and don’t forget to press “Shift” button while deleting. You didn’t purchase this woofer for Pankaj Udhas’s or Jagjit Singh’s ghazals’ man. Just rock your room with Rammstein, Porcupine, Metallica, Pink Floyd’s music. Did you ever realize the depth of shit that you have been into? Fuck your love for that bitch. She doesn’t even think about you. She doesn’t care for you. Did she fucking care to show any concern to you even for once after break up? Instead she found puppet for herself so easily. Probably she will be sharing her bed with that bastard right now when you are thinking about her and crying like a 2 month old child cries for milk. She called you that day, cried for 2 secs and you were like what, sorry for her. For what you were sorry d**k-head? Couldn’t you get that it was all a drama. You always talked to her, even when you were tired or busy…just for her, for her comfort. You never rejected her call. But now, she just doesn’t want to talk to you. So much so that she even blocked your number you ass-hole. Are you such a dumb-ass who is not able to understand gravity of situation still? She didn’t bring another thought to her mind when an option came her way. She didn’t think about you even once. What the hell is wrong with you man? You simply ignored all the proposals from hot chicks in the town who were desperate to hook up with you. Fuck you..fuck you dude!!! Cmon yaar…don’t you know your caliber? If you really want you can make any girl fall for you. Between, trust me; she was nothing in front of that hot Jammu chick. And for god sake please come out of that I-just-want-to-see-her-happy shit. Why her happiness does matter to you? Moreover you have seen that bastard right? He looks like a villain of C-grade south movie. She fell for him for his big…car. Just open your eyes you dumb-ass, she is just another girl who runs after money. Or runs after dick-heads with money.  She weighs diamond neck less more than your warm hug. For god sake, come out of the sleep. Don’t you remember she mentioned you so many times that even her friends were so jealous of her seeing with you. And don’t you dare say that “she might not be hottest or most beautiful girl but has beautiful heart”. Fuck you and fuck your thoughts. Who in the world would find a guy soon after a breakup? And she took less than a day for it. It was all a set up you moron. Did she give a damn about the tonnes of tears that you shed for her? Did she ever care to realize what you were going through? Did she have the slightest idea about all the sacrifices that you’ve done for her? Cmon dude…this world is full of hot chicks. Just choose another for you and move on. Ufffffffff…I am tired and I think it should be enough for you dumb-ass…now just go and get me another peg of rum. And don’t forget to make that large. JJJ

  

And this was it. I was surprised after reading all of it. I wondered if it was me actually who wrote that. I had no idea that I had such a self ego within me. I kept laughing reading that again and again.

Frankly it was such a relief. I was feeling like someone has removed tonnes of weight from my head. I was feeling so relieved.

I just played my favorite track “Nothing else matters by Metallica” and lied on bed to relax.

My sleep got disturbed by phone ring at 5pm. And to be surprise it was HER. Just a day before, it was like dream-come-true for me, but now that meant nothing. I looked over my phone again and smiled. And then rejected her call…yes…I rejected her call…for the first time.

I stood up and looked into mirror. The reflection was not of same person whom I looked in afternoon. There was a smile on my face which I haven’t seen from a long time. I finally could say that I was over her.

P.S. – All these vulgar or abusive words are to spice up the story. But still please don’t forward to any girl. ;P

P.P.S – All incidents appearing in this write-up are fictitious. Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, or incident is purely coincidental. :) :) :)

It's over!!!

Sometimes I think the mistake was mine

But in real it wasn’t me, it was wine

I know I hurt you sometimes

But it was you back of my mind all the times

I was quite and always polite

Our relationship was so delight

I never ever thought to hurt you

Perhaps couldn’t make realize this to you

Sometimes when we were on call

And had nothing to talk

We stared up at the stars

And tried counting them all

I was really down thinking about past

My mind was always about to blast

You thought I am happy without you

But look here baby, nothing seems true

I thought you are different like a MOET

But you turned out be same, every other poet

The way you end everything

Now I hate having you on my mind

I am not here for you to come

also to go as like you

I have taken control over my life

With a new start

A start by giving up what hurts me most

And dats “YOU”

It's too late!!!

 You were special, you were droll

 No doubt you played best of your role

 You could be mine, my mate

 But I didn’t realize until it was too late!!!

 You truly loved me, and always caring

 Supportive always without me knowing

 By my side even after being rejected

 Still coming to me smiling and laughing

 When you told you loved me,

 Something that took so much courage to say,

 Something I don't have the dare to say,

 Why didn't I believe you?

 You accepted with everything I have

 Offered me a love that's more then I could stand

 Now you are gone, left me totally blue

 I won’t find any perfect as like you

 I'm sorry for I didn't believe you,

 Now I don't see you by my side

 I miss you,

 I understand how much I needed you.

 I am sorry, the friend I loved,

 Now that I have lost you

 Now that I know I loved you,

 It's all too late.

Dummies Guide to Display Pictute (DP) on social sites

Display Picture on a Social Site – Never would anyone have imagined a Girls profile pic
can speak so much about her than herself. Reading faces was an art people tried to master
and so is the reading of nature by DP.
IF you are a GUY – then you will agree with me that we spend half the time on FB just
browsing some random girl’s profile. After storming a 100 odd profiles we would have
zeroed down to a few to send a request.
Now the Big Question 

• On what basis they filter the profiles?
• What exactly they look into just profile?

And here I was at the outset of my research – visited and created few secret groups…in
short I was spying the whole FB for critical information on what makes a Female profile
vulnerable for FRIEND REQUEST !!!

•  The profile with a very beautiful and catchy girl’s picture as DP with more than 1200 friends, it’s a fake profile for sure…so just enjoy these pictures and move on to next tab.
•  The profile with some celebrity as DP with normal range of friends say (150-250), should be a genuine profile where girl is of shy or silent character. Or may not be good looking…better close the tab.
• The profile with puffed cheek child or Barbie doll as DP, she is in her teenage and still needs time to grow up…better move on to next tab.
• The profile with genuine child’s picture as DP, she is married and it’s her child. No need to waste your time…switch to another tab.
• The profile picture as some guy standing/sitting by her side with hands over her shoulder or waist, better close this tab…she is already booked.
• The profile having more than 2 people as DP (usually count as 3) has two sub-categories

1. All the persons in DP are girls, she is party loving but might be ugliest one among  all…look for other pictures if she has shared…rest decision is in your hand, if you are ready to take risk…go ahead and send request.
2. There is one guy and 2 girls or something like this in DP; she is friendly and party loving…browse her profile’s wall and can think about this girl.

• The profile with DP taken from some side, normally of just her face, she is probably fat and trying to cover this by showing only her face…try to find about her from other information if shared.

•  The profile with DP from some angle (probably whole body); she is not as good looking as she is looking in that photo and trying to cover using some angle.
• The profile with DP having some color affects (usually B&W or saturation); she may have some dark circles, pimples or scars on face and trying to cover under those effects.
• The profile picture taken from a far away having alone girl, definitely a genuine profile, just zoom out and try to figure out more from other given information if sharable.
• The profile picture having alone girl showing 70% of her body with average range of friends (say 200-350)…definitely a genuine profile but can be categorized as –

1. The girl is wearing suit…need to look for another factors and choices of her before making decision.
2. The girl is wearing jeans or 3/4th… there is a chance…try to hit for jackpot.
3. The girl is wearing minis or short dress…mostly her other information will be locked…just enjoy the only picture...just to fulfill desire, send her but she won’t accept your request.

• The profile picture with some ugly face, mostly a genuine profile, just close the tab as soon as possible before somebody catches and awards you with “The most THARKI”.
• The profile picture with a cute face with other information hidden except her sex…definitely a genuine profile…play with your luck but mostly she won’t accept your request or she may be the one for you.

P.S.1 – First noticeable point whether her status is single, in a relationship or something
else.
P.S. 2– These are just random thoughts which might not be applicable on all the girls. So,
please avoid any hard feelings and enjoy the reading. :)